Tuesday, August 30, 2011

"If Sex Was a Race I'd Always Lose" - J.J.

Family dynamics are probably one of the most interesting, and frustrating, things I've ever dealt with...  Sometimes I wish I would have started this blog under an alias, I could go indepth about how absolutley fucked up my family is and not have to worry about anyone's feelings getting hurt.

Don't get me wrong, I love them all... they are my family but I am beginning to understand why a lot of families only have visits at Christmas.

I'm really going to focus on doing things that will sustain my happiness from here on out. When I get home I'm going to start hunting for a job and get my career on the go. Also, I'm going to get back into running and start training for another half marathon. I'm going to focus on strengthening my friendships with the people who support me and care about me unconditionally... I've been acting stupid lately and putting far too much energy into relationships and friendships that are toxic. It's ridiculous that I do that; the only person who loses is me. I think I'm a sucker for punishment, haha.

My Plans For September
1)Find a job- anywhere. Keep applying for LPN positions...
2)Start marathon training again- run 4x per week
3)Meditate each day for 20mins
4)Send an email each week to one friend I haven't spoke with in a long time

Oh, and another random thought... Lately when I've been feeling blue I watch the Beyonce Live clips on YouTube. It probably sounds cheesy but I find it empowering and I instantly feel better. Try it sometime, she is amazing!

xx

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