Even Though We Ain't Got Money I'm So In Love With You Honey...

Trying to be optimistic today...  My life is sort of overwhelming right now...

Guess I'm going to try to organize my thoughts.

I'm done school in 2 days.  Scary.  Which means that I need to find employment, sooner the better.  After looking under every single health care authority in BC I have come to the conclusion that there are NO JOBS for LPNs here.  RNs, yes... but not LPNs (which makes me think I should have just taken my RN from the beginning- nothing I can do about that though.)  So, I have a few options

(1) I can stay in Kelowna, hope to get hired as a casual at a few places and pray I get enough shifts to pay my rent.  If I can't find a LPN job I can go work at Subway (or somewhere equally as degrading) and make $11.00 and live in poverty until I find something.

or

(2) I can move back to Medicine Hat, where I will likely be getting close to full time hours... and even if I am not I don't have to foot the $700 rent bill a month because I can stay in one of my grandpa's basement suites for free.  SCORE.  In the meantime I can save some money and apply for jobs in Calgary, Edmonton, and even back in BC, and when I get one I can relocate again.

I really don't want to move back to Medicine Hat, but maybe it's what I need to do for a while...

I just know how hard it is to leave once you get comfortable.  I guess I could put a time limit on it... Say that I have to move by May.  Work towards it...  Plus, for what I will save on rent, I will be able to put away to make my next move a bit easier.

GAH.

I'm trying to think positive and put my faith in the universe, believe that everything happens for a reason and whatever is meant to happen will happen.  All I can do is try my best to find work in Kelowna...

Postive thoughts. Positive thoughts.

Another thing that is bothering me... Just last week I found out a friend of mine has a brain tumor.  Hearing that news destroyed my heart.  We've grown apart over the last few years (like everyone does) but when I was in high school she was one of my best friends.  She is having the tumor removed this week and then the pathologist is going to look at it and give her insight into what's going on.  It's devastating news, and it breaks my heart because she is such an amazing, kind individual and it makes me think "why her?  What did this lovely girl do to deserve such a cruel punishment?"  I'm just going to think positive for her too, it was just a slap in the face and a reminder that life is short and I have a lot to be thankful for...

My one hope is that whoever is reading this takes a minute today to tell the special people in their life how amazing they actually are.

xx

Brandi